Ummmm

So I got an email today saying welcome back to Facebook! Which concerns me BC I haven’t reactivated my account. So if you see me online please text me, BC its not me. Changing my password and deactivating again when I get off work.

Droid

So on a whim today I decided to give android a try. I had shattered my iPhone screen and had to upgrade anyway. So if any of you text me and I don’t reply its probably because I don’t know how to use it yet.

Anyway. The Christmas tree is up, so thankfully. It won’t become a birthday tree!

Searching for motivation

Every single day I have logged into this site, sat there for a minute, and then logged back out. Sorry for that. I tried. I don’t know what my deal has been this week, but I have been SO exhausted! I know I am fighting off some winter blues, so today is being dedicated to clearing out clutter, organizing, and deep breathing. I am currently seated with a cup of coffee, my therapy light (thanks Tammy), and a notepad and pen. Top of the list, take down the christmas tree. I will NOT make it a birthday tree this year! I am also making a list of things that I need to purchase for our new home to help sort clutter, store it, and make it easier to maintain. Right now, I have dvds, cds, books, wii and playstation games, with no bookshelf or entertainment center. Do you know how frustrating that is? When ya’ll hear my complain of not having furniture, this is my real complaint. I don’t really have places to put things out of sight and into a place that makes sense to store it there. Yet another reason why I am so excited to move! Landon can no longer say “no” to purchases made to make the home more stress free. 

Isn’t it crazy how a messy house will cause you unrest, discomfort, and stress? I told Landon yesterday when I got home… I CANNOT LIVE LIKE THIS ANYMORE!!!! While I love my husband, he is not the most sensitive man, and he answered “well most of its your shit anyway, so stop complaining”. Ah, I love him.

But he is right though. Most of it is my stuff. His mess is all food and dishes related. And God help him if he doesn’t start throwing away his lemon rines when he squeezes out the juice instead of putting them in the sink!!!!! I know I can’t get mad at him for that, when at the moment, I have dirty clothes everywhere. But soon, very soon, I can (kidding, sort of).

Which is also what I am doing today. I am getting rid of A LOT, and I mean A LOT of clothes. I am not anywhere close to a size 2 or 4, or heck even a 6 right now, and by the time I am again, I will want new clothes. So I am keeping a few expensive “skinny” items, but most everything else is goodwill bound. Let some other genetically blessed unfortunate enjoy my old school abercrombie.

Okay, I have reached my limit for computer time this morning, so I am off!! If you read this on Saturday, please text me words of encouragement, ya’ll know how easily sidetracked I am.

Peace and blessings.

Interpretation

For the elderly reading this… YOLO= you only live once. It’s in a rap song called “the motto”, I am sure you’ve heard it.

Second: Landon needs me to tell you that our debt is stupid student loans and that “stupid stuff I spend money on” is magazines.

Ok. At ease.

YOLO Ya’ll

I am SO freaking proud of myself. Why you ask? Because as of yesterday, I am no longer on facebook. Yes. I am alive, I made it through an entire day without checking statuses about baby’s pooping, hangin out wit muh homiies, and other crap that I don’t really care about. Reason being is that I have been wasting so much of my precious free time on the site, and I realize that if I actually want to change my life, and make it similar to this “ideal” life in my mind, then I need a catalyst. Hence, no more facey-b.

Which brings me to point numero dos. I chose to aptly name my blog happyhappyhappyrachel because that’s what 2013 is going to be all about. Getting healthy. Getting my current and future home in order and decorated, and actually getting out and experiencing things, instead of being a hermit. Landon and I just feed off of each other, if someone is excited, so is the other person. But we both get a bit down during the winter months, and we get out less and less. So, the only way to change it is to just simply “do”.

I’ve got about 50 pounds to lose. Ick. Let me type that again. 50.

Okay, lets just skip over that for right now. Let me tell you about this “ideal life” that I have in mind.

 

First. An organized and well kept home. Decorated in whatever style I choose (which I recently found out is “rustic chic”). Second. To see the 120’s again when I step on the scale. Third. To entertain family and friends at our home for holidays, get togethers, game nights, etc. Fourth. Get out of debt and stop spending money on stupid stuff. Fifth. Spend more time appreciating all of the blessings God has given me. Sixth. Getting right with the Lord! This is honestly the very first time in my life that I have been excited about God. I know that nana’s passing was the reason for this, but I am thankful. She would be oh so proud of me.

Also, in my ideal life, I have a new puppy. Please someone make sure Landon gets me one for my birthday. Help a brother out.

I am going to do my best to update on the reg, and seeing that I don’t have a facey-b anymore, I will need a cyber outlet. Thanks for reading. Sorry if it wasn’t very entertaining. I promise to get better as time goes by!

Peace and blessings.